“I’m sorry, there’s no heartbeat.”
Words that too many women have heard.
Miscarriage and infant loss. Something so common, yet very few people talk about. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage.
When I heard these five words just over a year ago, it brought me indescribable pain. But, that indescribable pain has brought me so much strength.
Strength from the strangers who reached out to me to share their stories.
Strength from watching how my body physically handled the emotions (and the hormones). Post-Partum and grief have been extremely challenging to get back from.
Strength in knowing that there are many others out there who might feel all alone… and finally being strong enough to talk about it. Running was a very helpful release for me to navigate the grief and to help my body get stronger.
As I’ve navigated the sea of grief over this past year, I’ve thought about ways that I could honor my sweet angel baby girl. I thought that if running was so helpful for me to navigate through the pain, maybe it would be helpful for others who are going through a similar thing. I came up with the idea to start a virtual 5k race so that everyone could participate no matter where in the world they are.
Race With Angels is a virtual 5k that will be held in the month of October, which is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Basically, you sign up and get sent a race packet that includes a customizable race bib (with a place to put your angel baby(s) name and angel wings that go on your shoelace. You can run or walk a 5k.
This race is a race that allows you to honor your angel every year. It’s a race that connects a world of ‘sisters’ who are all part of a secret club that none of them would have wished to be a part of. A race that gives a voice to our pain.
There is strength in numbers. You are not alone. Just like there is sunshine after rain, there is strength after pain.